I am in need of some help here. Let me give you some background. I have 7 kids. Ages 10,8,6,5,3, 21 months and a One month old. I have been homeschooling my kids since they started school. I have gone between virtural academies... (3 different ones) to just trying to do this on my own. while preg with dd #7 and after having her, its been very hard for me to keep up with the kids work. I dont really have a math curriculum therefore, my kids are very behind in math. Im worried about my oldest and her getting what she needs academially, i feel she is very behind from where she needs to be. On the other hand, my 8 yr old is very bright, and i dont feel im doing enough for her to challenge her.. I just dont know what to do. My 6 yr old is doing good in her reading, but im not really doing math with her either because i just dont know how to go about scheduling my day to give everyone the attention academically that they need.
Several months back, I recieved a flyer in the mail, it was for a new Charter school opening up, small class sizes (12-15 kids) , uniforms, and above all they offer "classical education" which is the kind of education i wanted to give my kids but i just dont feel im able to give them what they need. Im sooooooo conflicted here... this is my "ideal" school i guess.....when my 8 and 6 yr old saw i was looking at the school website, they were begging me to go and said they get distracted at home and that they really want to learn at school (even tho they have never gone to schoool). however, my oldest is very nervous and said she doesnt want to go because she would miss me too much and she just wants to stay home. She is the one i am worried about the most academically. I love my kids home with me, I enjoy them home.... but im really wondering if this is the best place academically for them.... I dont want to hold them back or not have them reach their potential because i dont knw what im doing or that Im too overwhelemd/busy to sit with them and teach them. Some days, i just have so much to do , between the baby, errands, appointments, bills , cleanning.. that we dont even do "school" and i feel soo guilty about that. I know my kids are behind academically, i wish i was the homeschooling mom that homeschools because my kids are far ahead of their peers. I can't give them "science lab" or other classes that the school can give them. I have a comprehensive book that they each work in, and a spelling book, i have them do reading, but that is the extent of what we have been doing. My 10 yr old cant even write or read cursive, still doesnt know her mutiplication facts, fractions, geometry. I have so much curriculum that i have accumulated, but nothing is getting used because im overwhelmed.
I would never put my kids in public school for obvious reasons. If this charter school didnt open up and it didnt have everything i wanted in a school then i wouldnt consider sending my kids to school. And i would continue getting further and further behind. My dh wants me to try the charter school and see what happens, he said if they dont like it , then we can pull them out. Im so torn and confused on what to do. the kids school situation consumes me all day, while i dont want them to be away from me, I cant help but wonder if it maybe the best for them ATM. My biggest reason for homeschooling is the influences of other kids and that still is an issue for me. DH says that we just will be really involved with the kids and schooling.
If my kids were not behind academically, this wouldn't be an issue for me because homeschooling would be benefiting them, but i cant help to think that sending them to this charter school will catch them up and perhaps they can excel.
sorry to be rambling, i think you get my delima.
please someone just offer me your advice. Ask me questions if you need more information.