How to be what they all need... (moms of "more" kids... mostly)
I'm struggling really hard to be what they all need.
Anyway, I'm "teaching" constantly... I flip from one kid to another in their independent subjects, and then we get into the joined subjects... I bounce into chores, cooking, etc... I come back to teaching again, cooking the next meal, testing their spelling words, listening to one child play the guitar while helping the other with her first ever word search made for pre and early readers. Ooops, baby smells poopy, and he has a rash I have been battling, so I have to interrupt the music and wordsearch to change a baby... both other kids are getting restless, but they both want mom's involvement or else their attitudes slip and they don't want to do the stuff anymore...
My eldest is in math that is over my head, but I'm learning it with her some, and she just asked a question on how to find the square root of x if x is 27 minus two (easy right? but not right now, because I'm now stepping over the baby gate while still chopping celery for dinner and I just cut my finger a little and have just bled on the food... argh... toss it, get out a new plate and Reilly starts screaming at the baby gate because Mom just stepped on the other side of it and it's just not acceptable...
I've had a few short stints where I could stop and read cafemom and post... while gobbling a few bites of lunch when I realized that I missed breakfast because I had accidentally scorched the eggs while answering a question from a kid... so some of the egg stuck to the pan, and I didn't have enough for everyone... so I had a glass of milk and thought I'd grab something in a bit.
I have a plan, I have organization... it's just a lot to do with four kids on four different stages of development (especially with a toddler.)
My health problems aren't helping. Sugars have been through the roof because of the stress and that has caused a yeast infection that won't heal. DH and I haven't been intimate for almost 5 months and he is going nuts... keeps poking and prodding me, pinching, grabbing, etc... and with all this pressure it just makes me cringe, but I don't want to hurt him and tell him that. Besides I've tried explaining it before and it just caused a rift between us.
I can't sleep at night (can we say 2 am?) because I am so desperate for "me" time. Hubby doesn't understand and he is hurt if I don't go watch the latest baseball (I hate sports movies) movie with him on neflix at 11 pm... so, when the movie is finally over, I'm finally on here saying... good grief... I love every minute of my family, I just need a few minutes of my own... what have I gotten myself into???
And yet, with all I do, I'm seeing serious needs in my kids (and my marriage) that I'm just not able to do anything about.
Moms with "more"... especially ones with issues like LD, autism, ADHD, ODD, etc...? How do you DO it all?