I'm startnig out this school year feeling like a single mom with no support. I just want to escape and cry :( My husband is working ridiculously long hours until december. That means I have no breaks at all until sundays (he works saturdays right now too). Thankfully it has given us a bit more cash in our pockets since they changed him to hourly, but I rather have him home! Maybe I need to hire a babysitter some days? I am so tired. I love my kids, but I am so tired! I hate looking forward to the being asleep, but then I am too tired to do anything. I feel like I am not mentally here during the day and my mind is trying to plan this school year and plan the day. I want to be present and enjoy them, but I feel like I can't right now. I mean my baby girl is so cute playing at my feet right now......but I am still so sad and crying. It certainly doesn't help that they are growing up so fast either. sigh.......sorry I just needed to vent. Hopefully tomorrow I will feel more here and energetic. Thankis for listening.
Just a little update :)
Yesterday went pretty good. WE had a rough start, my son was very angry and upset, but we went to a pool party and he snapped out of it, thankfully! Then wehn I put everyone to bed we had some special cuddle time. DH came home and we talked and cuddled too. Dh also wrote on my facebook wall "Im so lucky to have an amazing supportive and wonderful wife. I love my Precious. Thanks for understanding the crazy hours and being a single mom right now. I know its hard and your doing great. You're by far my favorite first wife. Love you baby! " I feel so blessed. :) Now off to Las Vegas! :)