So, I first got with my baby's father back in Jan. of 2010. Mind you, we are teens, but mature for our age. We had our daughter December of 2010. For the 2 weeks of our relationship, it was good. 'Til week 3 came along, he broke up with me because I had a friend that was a guy of the gay variety. I took him back the next day. Then week 5 came along, he broke up with me because I wouldn't skip school to hang out with him. I took him back... again. Then came month 3. I found out I was pregnant, and that he was cheating on me. I left him. Took him back a week later, still cheating on me. This happened off and on 'til October. I went into pre-term labor and he left me for this girl he knocked up. He constantly called me to say he wishes I would die and etc. 6 weeks later, I took him back. Things were good for the first month...then back downhill. It was constant put downs. "Why did you get so fat?" "don't you love me enough to look good?" "quit being a fucking whore" and much, much worse. Mind you, this whole time, there was also physical abuse. Him threatening me with knives, pushing me down the stairs, hitting, slapping, punching, throwing, etc. Then I left him because he got into drugs. Again, constant calls, broke my car window and stalked me. 6 months later, I took him back because he was in counseling and showing that he was trying. He was also waiting his court date, for he was going to jail for trafficking meth. Two counts. Class A felonies. Well, he got 30 days in Juvy and 3 years probation. I had my first call with him today, and the whole time it was 'Quit being a whore," "you better pray to God that he will help you when I get back" and more. He was accussing me of cheating with these people I've never even heard of before. Then at the end of the call he says I love you and I miss you. Can't wait to see you again.. Oh, and he also is always throwing back in my face that he didn't get to see our daughter for 6 months andthat I kicked him out of her life. I didn't let our daughter go to his house because I heard he was making meth and such, and the MDEA classified him as a threat to our daughter...which I think is a good reason to only do supervised visitation.
I love him, I really do. But, being with him puts me back into depression. I ahve no time to cheat on him, nor do I want to. I go to college from 9am to 4:30pm, then I'm home doing my other college course online and taking care of our daughter. what should I do?...please don't be harsh, I'm in a serious mental breakdown state... What do you all think? I'd love to get different point of views...this decision will probably make or break my life dealing with relationships..