I just got out of an abusive relationship. I was with him for 2 years. Well, i never thought he would hurt my children, because my boys never acted like he hurt them, they always wanted to play with him. Well, i noticed these marks on my 3 year old that looked like lighter burns. Well after cps and the cops talked to my children it was determind that he burnt my child, and that he also would kick them when I wasn't around. Well he is now locked up and facing a lot of charges. I have tired to leave this man 3 times. But I hate myself and feel like I have failed my boys because I failed to protect them. I let a man drain me dry and only gave my children and I scars. We are living in a motel because of him. I feel like the worst mother and person ever. I'm just grateful that we are away from him now. By the time he gets out of jail, my boys and I will either be far away or somewhere where he will never be able to find us. I went and had a peace order issued.
Everytime I would try to leave him, he would make me feel as if I wasn't good enough for anyone not even my children. And he also had me thinking that I'm worthless and no one would ever love me. (I still feel this way) he would also threaten to kill me if I left. But I'm finally away. I was seriously starting to think about signing my rights of my children over to their father and I was going to kill myself.
But now he is gone and its just my boys and I. This is the happiest I have been in a long time. I do however want to kill this man. (I won't thought because my children need me)
I really do hate myself for letting this happen.
on Nov. 25, 2012 at 12:50 AM