I have been with my current BF for 4 years on and off. We have def had a rocky relationship and I have been pushed to my limits with the things he does over the last years. To give you a little history, he cheated ALOT in the first year, which i didn'd find out abot until much later after it happened, left me for one of the girls he cheated on me with while I was 6 months pregnant with HIS SON, belittled me, nearly forced me to cut off all of my friends and family and secludes me from the world it seems. I don't feel like I even know who i am anymore. Needless to say I have no trust in him anymore so I go through his phone about once every 6 months to make sure I'm not being played for a fool again. We fight about this constantly. he made me deactive my facebook but refuses to deactivate his. I believe he just doesn't want me to see what he is doing on there. His family lately has been very rude to me beleiving I don't treat him right and they constantly tell him that they feel sorry for him because he has to live with me as the mother of his child. They have planned holiday events for Xmas that don't include me but do iclude my BF and our son, so it looks like I am going to be spending the Holidays alone.
I am ready to leave and move on with my life but I can't seem to do it. I have no friends or family to support me because I cut them ooff and they are so tired of us breaking up and getting back together they don't really wanna deal with me either. I have been going to counseling because I have PTSD from the many things he has put me through. Any advice from someone who has been through a similar sitiuation would be soo appreciated!
and just so you all know, I am a successful person, I am a school nurse and am going to college to get my masters in nursing. I have plenty to do to keep me busy. i don't know what the appeal is with him that i keep going back!!