So recently I've been screwing up at work. It's even worse than it sounds because I work for my boyfriends family business. My Bosses are my bf's father, and pretty much my boyfriend as well. I've been employed by them for about 2 1/2 years.
I moved to my location now to be with a man I've known 13 years. It's 1,200 miles from my family and friends. I want to live here for sure. I haven't made any friends because I"m working for my bf's family business which doesn't give you much interaction outside of the house. I honestly want my independence back. I've been here going on 4 years. I just need to get my feelings out even if it's to whoever reads this.
I don't know why I've been screwing up, I've been taking extra precausions when working, double checking my work, but it just not working out for me. I wake up with a great outlook on life but now it's like I dread getting out of bed for what is the next thing I've screwed up on.
Besides the fact that I hate where I'm living ( due to the HOA where we reside you cannot live outside of the business due to the HOA not wanting people commuteing to and from the house for work) I have to live with my MIL and FIL which I'm not loving. I've lived by myself most of my life and now I'm living with them it's really hard to get along, living and working together. I don't have enough money to pay for dental care that I need that is coming up which is putting my brain elseware...
Than there is the BM drama which is an entirely different story. "Hell in flipflops" as I like to call her. I just have so much going on in my life I can't really pin point what is making me screw up at work. It's not like I"m not trying my hardest. It never used to be this way untill the past few weeks. I'm just a mess.
Thanks for letting me rant.