I don't know if there is anyone out there experiencing this, I am sure there is!
I am 35 yrs old, have a fantastic, happy and healthy 2.5 yr old little boy. He is the center of our world! We have been trying to have another baby for a long time now (1.5 years) however it is not happening. It took us a while to get pregnant with him and I feel blessed and very happy to have him in our life. I am aware there are people who don't have one child so again I feel incredibly lucky. However I also feel guilty b/c I am afraid he is going to be an only child. He loves playing with other little kids and is very social. I just want him going through life feeling lonely.
We are not in the situation or want to do IVF or IUI due to the expense and I am not into the synthetic hormones. I had a c-section and about a year ago had a chemical pregnancy and since then have not been able to get pregnant. All ultrasounds come out ok, the blood hormones tests come out ok, I have been experiencing some symptoms that make the docs think it could be scar tissue or endometriosis. However the symptoms didn't start until after the chemical..or maybe it was a coincidence. idk!
My husband will be 35 in a few months and he feels if we have another one, great, if not, he is happy with my son and feels blessed. He does not want to be 38-39 and have a baby (due to risks, age, age, fairness to the child, etc.) which in my opinion nothing is wrong with that these days. I understand ideally it would be nice to be younger but things don't always work out that way. SO we are not on the same page when it comes to that, he wants to stop trying eventaully but I am afraid I will never get pregnant again and my son will be an only child and I feel so incredinly guilty! I mean when is it smart to stop trying? I know many factors come into play, finances, personal factors, family, etc.
Any thoughts on only children? secondary infertility issues? Age?