Drinking Alcohol (A Lot) in Early Pregnancy: Thinking about terminating
I have never posted in an online board before, but I feel pretty desperate and am hoping that I can get some advice or support.
I am in my late 20s, with a marriage that has its ups and downs and a stressful job. I drink on an almost nightly basis, although I'm not drinking to get drunk. It is more like a drink or two, maybe three if it was a bad day. But it is almost every day. And on the weekends, I go out and party and drink a lot (I mean a lot).
About a month or so ago, I went out drinking and went all out. I must have had the equivalent of 12-15 drinks. I was drunk but not throwing up or passing out.
I found out a few days later that I was pregnant. The doctor believes that conceived about 2 weeks and few days before the binge drinking night, and so my baby-to-be was exposed to booze for most of that time, and a LOT of booze on one night, right before I found out.
I stopped drinking when I found out, but the doctor says that there is no way to tell what the extent of the damage is at this point.
I have been going back and forth and back and forth. I have an appointment scheduled for tomorrow morning, to terminate the pregnancy. I don't know if I can live with the risks of the drinking.
My husband is very opposed to abortion, and i would have to do the procedure on my own and tell him that it was a miscarriage. I do not know if he will believe me or not, but I feel like I have my back against the wall.