I have no idea what or how to feel right now.
My husband got a vasectomy in October 2002.
We have 5 kids right now. Our girls are 15, 13, 12 and 11. Our son is 6. Our son came to be after a very horrible night that I cannot remember. I was 3,000 miles away from my husband visiting my mom with my girls. I was date raped. My husband is the only Daddy that our son will ever know. I have no idea who raped me.
My new OB/GYN says that there is a .74% chance of my husband getting me pregnant. That is POINT seventy four percent chance. (She also asked if I had had any other sexual partners. I said "Nope" and that's the absolute truth.)
My mother in law is thrilled. She has a grandbaby due in October, another one next January, and now we are due March 14th, 2015. They had to do an ultrasound to determine how far along I am, because my girls threw away part of my calendar...the most important part. I always mark my periods on it, and that part is missing.
My MiL is going to be here helping my SiL in January with their new baby, and she will be back in March to help with ours for a bit.
My mom is less than thrilled, but she's accepting the news well. She will be out here in the middle of September anyway. She's excited because my "morning sickness" will basically be gone by then. *sigh* I don't really have the throwing up part...I just have the extreme nausea. All day. Every day.
I don't know how to tell my best friend. I've known him for 30 years. He is "Uncle Tuna" to my kids. I don't know how to tell him because I just finished telling him back in the beginning of June that I couldn't be a surrogate for him and his partner because my last two pregnancies almost killed me. (which is absolutely true)
We came home and told our kids after we called our moms. They are very excited, and our oldest is already dying to give me a baby shower, which I told her is not necessary. She said that we are getting a baby shower, no ifs ands or buts.
I also have what they think is a benign tumor on my pelvic wall. It's not close to the baby. That has popped up in the last 6 years since my last ultrasound.
I'm just scared, ladies. I was perfectly content with our 5 kids, and now there's another on the way. We are keeping the baby, no question. I'm just nervous. And scared.
Back to diapers and such.