My ex left me January 2010 because he wasn't happy being married. We were high school sweethearts and had been married for 12 years. At 1st I felt that my whole life came crashing down around me. I sunk into a deep depression and almost took my own life. I started counseling and anti-depression meds as well as going back to church. My family was also a big help at this time.
It's now been almost 3 yrs since my divorce has been finalized. I met and fell in love with a wonderful man and am planning on moving in with him next summer. We've been talking about getting married but neither one of us can afford that right now. The thought is that we will move in together and then save up for our wedding. This man treats me like his queen and there isn't a doubt in my mind that he loves me. His co-workers, friends, and family all tell me he is crazy about me.
I know that there is a part of me that still loves my ex and likely always will. He was a big part of my life for many years and the father of my 3 children. I still have contact with him since we have joint custody of our 3 children. I would NEVER date the man again because he caused me so much emotional pain, cost me a lot of money and totally ruined my credit. I'm civil to him for the kids sake but that's it.
From the time we started dating until he left me, we always ended our phone conversations with "I love you" and whenever we parted ways, we would always kiss. CLEARLY we aren't doing that now and haven't for some time. I haven't seen him in months (which is AWESOME) and most of our communication is via text. The other day he must have been lonely because he actually called me. He wanted to talk about the kids. Nothing big, just wanted to talk. Anyway, at the end of the conversation, it still felt weird. Like neither one of us knew how to end the conversation.
Does anyone understand what I'm saying?
Sorry this ended up being so long.