I have a 17 year old son who I gave up for adoption when I was 16. It was a semi open adoption and when he was 12 he reentered my life. His family is wonderful and we have a great relationship. They are so great to include me in their life. But I havr respected that I made a choice for him when I was young and made the hardest decision in my life and have had to live with that decision that he wouldnt be soley mine.
I have bonded so well with my skids that when they are gone I feel our home is empty. I love every moment they are here even through the hard times of parenting but I have always been cognizant and respectful that they have a mom and a dad and i have never tried to mess with that or coveted to be anything more than stepmom.
But my bioclock is ticking and I sometimes feel that desire to procreate so strongly that I wake up crying with the pain and loss that that is not on my path in life.
I am not unhappy with my choices or my life in an manner and my cuppeth runs over with blessings.
Is it hormones? Has anyone else felt these feelings? My sister said she felt the same way after having their last baby and went through a greiving period and coming to terms with this will be their last.