So im engaged and been with my fiance for 3 yrs (since FSD was a lil over a yr old) and now my fiance is ready to tie the knot and truth be told im scared, im afraid of the responsibility that comes with being a step mom and making the both of them apart of my life permanently, however i feel like im in pretty deep and i dont see my life without them. im just confused but too caught up in "getting married" that i dont want to tell my fiance cuz if he knows im getting cold feet he will not want to get married.
on another note, fiance's Baby mama is being convicted of 3rd degree aggrevated burgalary with priors so she's (hopefully) doing time. I've had enough of her drama and want her out of the picture (she's only damaging the child) but everything has been good (she hasnt been around for a couple months) and now she's trying to get back in the picture and for some reason it makes me drift away from them. I know its just jealousy because i dont like the way they say "our little girl" i know they have every right to, but i have been taking care of her since day one and she comes back in the picture and i feel pushed back when they talk about parenting when its my fiance and I doing the parenting. its all so unfair but i dont really know how to tell fiance how i feel.