Haven't been myself lately.... *short edit at bottom*
I haven't been myself lately. I'm moody, to put it bluntly. Everything SO and SS do annoys me. I can't stand to be in the house with them. I wish I could leave but since we share a vehicle, I have to make sure SO doesn't need the car first.
The last two weekends have been consumed with SO doing things with SS. Which I don't mind. However, I'm a firm believer in not blowing money just because it is there, and since we've had more money the last couple months, SO seems to think it's okay to have a "boys' day out" every Saturday. DON'T GET ME WRONG HERE- I'm all for them having time to themselves to have fun and be dad and son together without me around. I found out though, that between last weekend and the weekend before, SO somehow managed to spend $200 fucking around mini golfing, riding go-karts, eating out, and going to the mini water park.
Of course, he's trying to distract SS from being bored and being annoying at the house (I admit- SS is getting on my last nerve lately, as well) but we DO NOT HAVE $200 to just BLOW like that!
I've been wanting to avoid SO and SS. I do not want to be there when they are home. I want to sleep late. I had Tuesday night off, so I stayed up until 6am, went to bed, and slept until after 5pm. I wanted to go back to bed.
I haven't gone grocery shopping in two weeks. SO mentions (too late, I add) that we're out of shit and it makes me mad. So I told him, "Then you better get some after work since you have the car." If I don't get right up and cook them dinner, he makes them sandwiches and doesn't bother asking me if I want anything to eat. This pisses me off. I will make them a nice dinner and I don't get a thanks but if I don't, SO doesn't even have the decency to ask if I want something. I'm done making dinner for them.
However, I've still been stuffing my face like crazy. Anytime I'm annoyed or upset, I start eating whatever is in front of me.
I think we're both driving each other crazy and everything is annoying us.
I also have a question about kids-
When do they start sleeping in on weekends? SS gets up before the sun comes up most weekends. But he's a pain in the ass to wake up on school days and he has usually had MORE sleep. I don't get it.
I just needed to vent I guess.
I'm starting pilates in the morning when I get home from work so I can release some of this tension!
**Thought exercise and meditation by myself would make me feel a bit better. Wrong. I managed to get motion sickness during pilates and I now have a massive headache. WTF? ....And no, I'm not pregnant.