OT small update, outlook changed a little but i am staying!! because i love you guy s! long
i know a lot of you have shown me mass amounts of support! some know more of what is going on in my life than others. just a very quick background for those who don't know me. i was a sm up till Friday when my life crashed around me. i had the worst kind of bm to deal with possible. she is a drug addict,very angry,and violent but she has custody. i went through hell was attacked stalked, accused you name it it has happened. i was detached from sm. haven't spoke to her in years. i was stbxh support system, i was there when he cried,was mad, and happy. i had to deal with a ss that was rude and obnoxiousness till i disengaged. life changed this were good. bm still played games.
well on Friday i found out that stbxdh was cheating! we split up and he went to live with her,(kiki)he called me every nasty name he could. told me i was never there for him treated his son like crap yadda yadda bla bla. well it has gone down hill for him since he left. karma is good!!!!! i haven't really been alone for long periods of time since all of this happened. i have wonderful friends and family. (after i was told i had no friends) Friday night i was getting harassing text msgs from him, and then the odd one from her (kiki) telling me she was pregnant. then the house phone was calls and hang up for a while. i did nothing wrong, i never even called him nor responded to the texts. a really good friend of mine is trying to be the voice of reason for me and stbxh. called him and told him to make it stop , that it wasn't needed and harassment. stbxh called him back sat night and told him he was sorry for texting me but wasn't aware that kiki was doing it. friend then said something about kiki and the pregnancy well she isn't pregnant and she has said to xh that i was harassing her. i don't know anything about her but her name,and haven't been alone. xh then goes on to tell friend that he has realized kiki is a little crazy!
hmmmm someone is realizing he done fucked up in a big way! now i found out he already left kiki and was living at the firehouse last night. he was told he could not stay there and is moving into a boarding house today! its in a nasty drug infested part of town. and lets face it the scum of the earth are the ones that live in them. he is getting his hours cut at work(a little insider told me) his life is now hell!
as for me im doing good every time i get more info i get a little better.do i still love him yes, i always will. will i give up and cry over him , i have moments but i wont be a hermit. will i miss his son yeas and no. i wont miss the drama,but i will miss his smile!
i am no longer a sm. but you guys are right i have the in site of what it takes to deal with the ultimate in crazy. there are some bms i will side with,there are some sm i will side with. so i will be lurking and reading, you may never know when i will pop up!