I'm a 42 year old woman with no children. I always assumed I would have kids but a series of situations/life choices have made that a non-option at this point. I feel like I am still in the process of mourning that I will never have children but most days it doesn't even cross my mind. I live with my boyfriend and his 6 year old daughter (he has 50/50 custody). This is the first Mother's Day since I moved in with them.
I've always enjoyed celebrating Mother's Day with my mom. We are very close and it's always been her day. Unfortunately I'm not able to be with her today but we talked on the phone and she knows I'm thinking of her. The day it'self has never bothered me. Until this year.... WOW!!
I woke up this morning feeling unbelievably empty and sad. I think I'm jealous of the fact that I will never have a "mother's bond" with anyone. Maybe it's because I'm starting to feel close to BFs daughter? Maybe it's because I'm sad that BF and I will never have a child of our own and that I'm jealous that he had this beautiful child with another woman (who I happen to like, by the way).
I can't seem to get over this unbearable sense of emptiness today.
Anyway, Happy Mother's Day to all you Moms and StepMoms. You deserve a day of celebration for all you do!