For some reason this week I finally realized how few "real" friends I have. I have literally only 1 or 2 friends that I sometimes get together with (it's a couple who are friends with DH and I) but she has a toddler and really can't get out much. I'm usually a busy person so I think that's why I haven't really noticed for all theses years. When we lived in Monterey 5 years ago, we did have quite a few friends we hung out with all the time, but since moving it has not been the same. I do work full-time and so does DH and we have had my 3 skids the majority of the time so I didn't really feel the need to have a lot of friends I guess. But now that BM has moved to town and the kids are with her about 50% of the time, and they are getting older and less needy, I am beginning to notice that there is not a lot of people that I could just call up and go hang out with. Part of it's my own fault because I tend to isolate myself at times, and get wrapped up with work and taking care of people, but today it kind of hit me that I am lonely. Of course DH is my best friend but sometimes I need a female to talk to or do girl stuff ( and he wants other company to hang out with too).
I think what really got me in this mood was because I was trying to figure out what to do for 4th of July since BM will have the kids this year. My SIL will be coming up but I was thinking that I don't want her to feel like a 3rd wheel hanging out with DH and I but I also don't know who else to even ask to hang out. Everyone I know in the area has their own families and usually go out of town to visit their parents or relatives during holidays. My in-laws live within two hours of us but Dh has to work on friday so I'm not sure if we should leave town. Anyway, this is just my ponderings while I'm having this little pity party, I'm not sure why this is bothering me so much right now. Well, thanks for letting me vent :)
on Jul. 2, 2013 at 3:28 PM