I know I am going to get a lot of s**t for this post. But I want to ask a question and don't expect completely truthful responses to it. But here it goes. When I had my first child, I didn't really want to have him. I wanted an abortion. But people who were in my close circle convinced me to have my child. They said once my child is here I will never regret my choice. And to be quite honest I don't. I love my son and I would kill anyone who threatens him. However, I don't think I made my choice based on these other peoples opinions. I think I made my choice because deep down inside it is what I truly wanted even though the repercussions suck. That is not even a true statement. Some of the repercussion suck. That being said, I still feel I was forced into having a child I really did not want.
This will never happen again. My question to all of you is without having some super mom judgments shoved down your throat, would you have given birth when you did? Have you ever had a chance to say I wish I did not do what I did? And since this is an Internet name no one will ever know it was you. Someone said to me once my child is born I will never regret the things I could not do from now on. But to be quite honest there are some things I wish I could do and I can't now because I am a parent. I am not saying I regret my choice, but I still have some dreams that will never come true. Here is your invitation to anonymous say a dream that will never come true.