I mean really....I read on here day after day, about all the issues with step parenting and I wonder why we do it? I mean truly...we must be crazy in love, or just plain ole crazy.
I have been married almost 10 years and it has been the most difficult 10 years of my life (well almost). I can honestly say that I have not enjoyed being a step parent, not for even a moment. I am not enjoying being a step grand parent either. Cold hearted.....it may seem that way. The truth is I am tired of being available as a step and just want to spend time with my own children and grandchildren. It may be because we live close to all my DHs family and so very far away from all mine. I just don't know. OR; maybe I am just wondering if after years of "eggshell walking" I am just ready to live my own life again.
Do I wonder why I am married sometimes....YEP! Do I love my husband....YEP.....I guess I am just feeling like my life is worth living to the fullest too and sometimes that means I put myself first, instead of my wonderful husband, and his family. I am currently visiting my family at my vacation home and to be honest....I have not missed home for even one second. That makes me quite sad, and wondering.......
Anyone else wonder why we do what we do?