We got home about an hour ago, and had some down time with the kids.
Today was rough but ok. It really really helped that BoyF was not physically in the court room. He has 21 charges against him. Some of them very serious, and some of them were not related to me at all. His whole defense, and let me tell you his public defender did not look thrilled to be there-shes a women, was that it was MY fault for taking the kids. He HAD to get rid of me so BM could get HER kids. Also he is still insisting I will pay for being an "uppity bitch and not knowing my place". So that's a fear for another day because hopefully he will never get out. What he and his friends wanted to do is just sick. Really sick. I am going to put that right back into the box in my head and not think about it for a while... I do have a therapy appt soon and will be talking over the phone to her tonight. He was indicted on all 21 charges and the triall will be in the next 6 months. I will have to testify again, YAY. I am choosing to present my testimony on video for his friends. I do not think I can deal with it so soon again. Its next week for them, I thought it was a few more weeks out.
But I made it and thank you so much everybody for you kind thoughts and wishes. DH is, of course blaming himself for this whole mess. He was very shaken when they were laying out what the plans had been.
Now I have to write a paper for school... yay...
Tomorrow is the day... Court to face BoyF. I am super nervous and scared about the whole thing. DH and I both had to take off.
I know how to dress and act, but I am very afraid that I might have an panic attack and/or cry. A lot.
I will be updating tomorrow.
Anybody else have to deal with this? How did you get through it?
PS.. This is my newest tattoo...