Well, I should say they make me anxious, O know it's my own thing, not them, but I get anxious nonetheless. When I haven't seen them for awhile, or even a short time like day, but especially long periods, I become nervous about what their "mood" is going to be. Mostly it's with my SD 12 but sometimes with the others too. I know it may sound weird but I think it comes from past experiences where its been an emotional rollercoaster with them. Admittedly, it's usually after they have been with BM just because of all the strong emotions that goes with having a parent that is bipolar and has not always been a stable fixture in their life. BM is now doing much better, and I'm not trying to bash here, but their has been kind of a love/hate relationship and some codepedency between her and her kids at times. Bottom line, the kids tend to come to us with a lot of emotional baggage and I feel a burden to comfort them and make sure they are happy. But overtime it has begun to cause me to become nervous in anticipation of seeing them. I never know what to expect or how to react to them, especially when they either miss BM or are upset with her but take it out on DH and I. I just feel like I have to carry this burden of something that is not supposed to be my responsibility. Anyone ever dealt with this?
on Jun. 24, 2014 at 10:43 PM