Ok so i havent been gtg along with my family and my husbands family or should i say they arent gtg along with me (apparently they cant handle the horomones of a pregnant woman so they decide to avoid me) which i have no problem with cause i am better off but in the back of my mind i do wish someone cared and at least see how im doing and if i need anything. i have no friends or no one to really talk too and i am trying sooo hard not to get depressed but im not sure thats possible just because i have no one i can express my feelings too. all i do is take care of my daughter and be pregnant and no one who understands me or cares for my feelings. my husband works 24/7 and he needs too to make money for the new baby we're having in dec. everyone hates me so much i dont think i am gtg a baby shower and i dont think we will have anyone to watch my daughter while i go in labor. ugh! i wanna cry but i am so over crying for people who dont care about me it just affects me and my baby and my daughter, my husband and i argue now more for some reason its like hes more mean too me and i feel like sometimes he doesnt care how i feel or that i am alone allll the time. i wish i can pick up the phone and call someone and cry too them without being judged or critized, i hate being in this situation. once i have this baby i will be soo ready to have a job and i hope its easier this time around. too top it all off i have Gestational Diabetes and i feel like i havent been able too talk to someone about it on how i feel and the fears i have for it.
anyway i can go on and on but i guess for now i will end here.