i feel... lonely, and lazy. *8 days till delivery date*
i have a 2 and a half year old son and he is my entire life and light. he means everything to me and I basically have him with me 100% of the time being as i am a stay at home mom and the only time I'm out of the house it's with my hubby and son.
in 8 days we're having a daughter Via C-section (I had terrible complications with my son and my Dr refused to let me try a natural birth for this one)
i am now 21 years old. (22 in january)
I have Zero friends to name.
my husband recently got a job promotion (that we desperately needed and is an amazing wonderful thing for our family) but it requires him to be gone 6am-6pm(some times later cuz of over time and commuting in traffic)
we only have one car (that my husband takes to work) and we're actively looking for another one but even with the promotion we can't afford a car payment or a "fixer-upper" off the street...
and all in all...
I feel horrible.
I don't have energy to do much of anything but I some how suck it up and make dinner every night for my hubby while still providing a happy active day for my son (thank GOD for crock pots) all with a big happy smile on my face...
but I'm sad.
and I'm lonely.
and I really hate not being happy about the holidays. even though this is the first year that money is not over flowing but it's not a horrid stress either...
is this some kind of... pre-partum depression?
am I just tired cuz I'm ready to pop?