I am going to start by saying that I know I am not a bad mother...but today I feel like I had an epic fail.
A little background to set the scene. We were about to venture out to do some shopping and the girls and I were downstairs. I had forgotten something upstairs and decided to quickly run up the steps to get it.
McKenzie is 15 months and is running all over the place. She is very quick and very smart so that makes her double trouble for her age. We do have a gate downstairs the blocks her from getting into the foyer. It is the kind that you screw into the wall and it has a locking mechanism when you shut it. Well since I knew I was going to run up and run back down I shut the gate but didn't lock it. In the time it took me to shut the gate behind me, run up the steps (our bedroom is literally at the top of the steps), grab the item off the bed and turn to run back down, McKenzie had pushed the gate open and climbed three steps. She is only a climber, she doesn't know how to walk up the steps nor go down the steps at all. The moment that she saw me she stood up and turned around like she was on a flat surface. She immediately took a tumble, striking her head on the step and falling to the floor beneath.
Our steps are wooden and non-carpeted. I immediately screamed (probably bloody-murder) and ran down to her. She was screaming and crying like you would do if you had just fallen down the stairs. She cried and sobbed for about a half-hour. Then she went back to her normal playing and her normal self. I called the doctor and she was convinced she "bounced" and should be just fine.
We had a normal afternoon and she went to bed almost immediately after we returned home from the store. I was concerned about what to do during the night for fear that she might go to sleep and not wake up so I called the doctor again for reassurance. She again thought she would be okay. She does have quite a battle scar on her face and near her eye. To make matters worse, my husband is at work today and my MIL was there to "hear" the fall and my scream. I am sure she is thinking I am a bad mother. We sometimes don't see eye to eye on things so I am assuming that is going through her mind. (She once said that if I let my daughter go to bed without brushing her teeth, and let her teeth rot and I wanted to live like "trailer trash" then that's my life).....so of course I am sure this just puts more on her plate.
I know that her fall was totally my fault and knowing that McKenzie is too smart for her own good, I should have known to shut the gate!!!! UGH....I know we can't change what has happened and I will definitely learn from this but......
I FEEL LIKE A BAD MOM FOR LETTING IT HAPPEN!!
*tears* -- Cat