Advice, prayer, just need someone to talk to :(
Hello i am new to the group and i really just need someone to talk to. There are so many things going on right now i just don't know where to start! I am a wife and mother of 4 children. DD1 is 9, DS1 is 4, DS2 is 3, and DD2 is 6 weeks. Back in May hubby lost his job, but has since found another. I am on maternity leave from work ( i work in fast food) and ever since hubby lost his job everything has fell apart. We got 3 months behind on the house payment, all our bills are past due and we are on the verge of losing or car. ( we already lost 1) We just can't seem to get caught back up. We barely have any food. and to top it off we are not gonna be able to do anything for our kids for Christmas! DHS says we make to much money! How in the hell does a family of 6 that lives off of 1200 a month make to much money?? I'm so lost right now i don't know what to do!! I have been looking for a 2nd job, but can't find anything. We can't $$ daycare so i have to get something the opposite shift of my husband. And we only have 1 car, our other car got repossessed. We don't have any family to turn to, my mom is a crack head literally, and his is a drunk! My dad has a "new" family and doesn't talk to me anymore, and hubbys dad passed when he was young! Iv'e put adds up on craigslist, and i have spent countless hours job hunting! I just don't know what to do. It seems like every day is a battle for us. Like today, hubby ran out of gas on his way to work because we have a - balance in the bank, and got wrote up for it at work for being late, and today i am feeding my children pb & jelly for supper because thats all we have, and I can thank WIC for the pb&j. I breastfeed my 6 week old, but how am i gonna keep up milk for her if i don't eat?? I just don't no what to do, i'm at my wits end! When i think about all this stuff i just cry, i mean how am i gonna explain to my kids that Santa didn't come here? What in the hell am i gonna say to them when they ask me why they didn't get anything?? I just feel like giving up, i don't know what to do!!! I'm not looking for any handouts so please don't bash me, and i'm not wanting anyone to feel sorry for me, i just need someone to talk to!