I haven't had a day this emotionally draining in years! I almost called in and told my boss I need a mental health day, but I would've cried all day so I went in.
The women I work with are awesome! One even told me she doesn't care what time it is that if I need to talk, call her because I matter to her! So of course that made me cry because I knew she meant it and that was the nicest thing another woman has ever said to me. My own mother has never, ever, not even once told me that she loved me.
As far as my SO, after I called my Grandpa crying, he told me to write SO a letter, I did and will give idea to him when I get home.
Thanks again for the great suggestions and encouraging words! I wish I could hug all of you!