When I was 17, I began dating someone in a different state.. We online dated and being young & naive for about 2 years. During that time, I was depressed & had just lost my dog who I had for 8 years, she was my only friend during my depression due to my close, close relative passing away and also, some stuff that happened in school. I felt like I had no more friends so I stayed home and talked to this guy all the time, he was the only thing that made me feel better about my depression but things had changed after my dog, and grandpa passing..
He became more & more distant, he was cheating on me behind my back and talking to his ex. I was so depressed that I felt like I NEEDED him to save my life and he was pulling away, it was breaking my heart and it litterally has made me suffer to this day of all that heartbreak that I once had. Now, I'm 23 and I have a boyfriend and I'm having anxiety about his ex now, like.. I know nothing would happen but its caused me to feel like he is going to leave me for his ex and sometimes it causes us to fight.. I dont know how to get over that feeling of being 'not good enough', or unhappy. Its hard to explain because I fear that the heartbreak from when I was 17 & depressed is going to come back up and I will feel that heartbreak once again.. I'm an adult now, I know but it drives me crazy and my bf crazy. I am 3months pregnant and I have not eaten today, I am mentally exhausted from MY own fault of having this anxiety. Its hard to explain. I wish I could explain it better then this but I can't.. I need help to get over that and I was hoping for some suggestions on how to do that?! I need it.. I need help!!