Hi, I've never been here before, but I'm looking for somewhere to find support and advice.
I have a 3 yr old daughter and a 4 month old son. My husband has had one problem after another with employment issues. I work full time, and we're still so broke. I HATE working full time. It would be one thing if I were working a job I love, or making enough money to do great things for my family. I'm not.
It didn't feel so bad until recently. I don't know if it's because I've now seen how fast it all goes. Or if it's because my daughter is getting older and I feel like she will need me more and more. But I cry every day about not being able to cut to part time work.
I would love to go back to school to maybe do better, but I have to work full time to JUST make ends meet. I can't IMAGINE adding school on top of that. I want to be with my kids.
Additioinally, my husband and I are on failry opposite shifts, so I feel like a single mom a lot of the time (I realize there are ACTUAL single moms who want to punch me for whining right now, lol). I just feel like I can't do everything. And the money situation is stressful. And keeping up the household is overwhelming. And I just WANT TO BE WITH MY KIDS MORE!
Is anyone in a similar situation? WAS anyone in a similar situation and able to make it better? Does anyone have any words of wisdom? I've been trying so hard to keep my chin up, but I'm getting pretty depressed.
Thank you so much.