Hi I will first introduce myself because im new to the forum. My name is krissie. I am 27, and have 3 children ages 9, 6, and 1. I came across this site doing a search. It appealed to me, so here I am. I hate to join especially this way but I really didn't know where to go. So here goes. I am engaged, and a stay at home mom. I do the usual things that a stay at home mom does. I take care of everything in the house. I am constantly busy which I'm sure you all can relate to (which is a reason I thought this site would be good for me). I just really feel like I am missing something. I can't put my finger on it. It's not religion so thanks ladies who were going to put that. When I was younger the family life was never in my future. I never knew it growing up, and I never planned on having it in my future. I wanted a fast life and to see everything. I had gotten pregnant young (18). I stepped up to the plate and did what a mother should do. I do not regret that one bit. Having my son was the best thing in my life. A few years later I had my daughter, and last year I had my son. I feel like I have no idea who I am, and I don't know where to begin in figuring that out. I try to explain that to my fiance but he doesn't get it. When I explain it to him about how I feel like I'm missing something and I have mentioned that I think it's because I'm busy taking care of everyone else, I get a comparison of how difficult things are for him. Like he stops listening and focuses on one thing I say and goes from there. And I give him full credit for going out and working, but it seems on his days off he's able to walk out the door and do what he wants. And when I say that it's not as bad as it sounds. It's more his days off are his days off. He does not put it that way. But me on the other hand I have to answer to everybody to make sure its okay. I guess I'm kind of jealous of the fact that he has days off while I feel chained to this house. Idk. It's not that I don't love him or the kids because I do, but I just feel lost and trapped if that makes any sense at all. If you need more clarification don't hesitate. I'm kind of just rambling. And so sorry I am joining like this, I'm not typically a whiner, lol. Thanks in advance for anyone taking the time to read this. Oh and I am not depressed.