I am a sahm of a 1 year old sweet little girl. My husband and I have been married a little over a year and a half. Since her arrival he has been pretty much absent and has resolved to drinking (alot). He has been to AA several times and has 2 OWIs.
Over the summer he had a drinking "episode" which caused me to leave for 2 weeks. I had left for the afternoon and came back to find him passed out on the living room floor and a bottle of vodka half empty. When he finally came to, he began looking for the keys to my car to go to his softball game. He does not have insurance for my car nor a valid license so I had hid the keys knowing this might happen. This is when $%*! hit the fan. He began slamming throwing and breaking things. He made threats. I should have called the police but I was taken so off guard and so scared I didn't know what to do besides lock myself in the car and call my dad. Long story short, my father ended up coming over with my brother to see me out. My husband had locked himself in the bedroom b/c he didn't have the guts to face my family.
Of course, an hour after I left he sent numerous texts begging me to come back blah blah blah. I finally did after 2 weeks. I know I shouldn't have and my pastor had warned not to go back unless he had a plan to change. My husband pretty much bull-s#%^tted his way through and now has made no changes. He is back to drinking every night. The communication is non existant. I am afraid to talk or bring something up or try and resolve ANY issue b/c when I do, he lashes out and says I'm the one who has issues and is mentally unstable.
Needless to say, I feel extremely lonely and like a huge piece of crap. Although I am married, I am left to care for my daughter because he does not help out and this is really starting to wear on me. I'm not sure what to do. I just feel pretty stuck.
Anyways, thanks for reading :)