I just got back from the hospital where they confirmed i just had a miscarriage i am so very hurt and confused and can't stop crying. I don't really understand what i done wrong why it happened to me again. I have had two good pregnancy Damien who is 5 and Gavin who is 3 im very proud to be their mommy but unfornately i have had 3 miscarriage's in a row. I don't know what is wrong with me. I was 9 weeks along this time and was so happy. The first miscarriage i was 5 weeks and 2nd one i was 6 weeks so i thought this time i was going to have a successful pregnancy. Im dreading having to go to dr to have my d&c done. I feel like i am failing apart im trying hard to stay strong but its so very hard. My hubby took our kids to his dad's for a few days to allow me to cope and rest. I don't want to have to tell my boys it's going to break their hearts they were so very excited to have a little brother or sister. I should have known better to not tell them yet. I feel stupid for doing it now. I wish i would have waited. I am definitely going to take time and figure out what is wrong with me and cope with another loss before i ever consider trying again. Im not going to give up though bc i really do want another baby. But it's in god's hands now. Thank you all for listening to me. I really appreciate having Cafemom everyone has really helped me in so many ways.
RIP my Angel Baby!