I am so frustrated, tired and at my wits end all the time. I have two kids (2 and 5) and so do about a billion other moms who do not yell and lose their $h1t with their kids and husband every single day. I start the day trying to keep calm, have a proper perspective and have fun with beig a mom but by 6 pm (at the very latest) i am so wound up I am about to literally smash something into a wall. Not my kids or my husband. But I do plenty of snapping and yelling.
Alcohol is not a remedy as I am allergic to it and can not function well even with one glass of wine or beer. Weed is not an option as it is illegal here. I am leery of prescription drugs because they are addictive and or harmful. But right now, i am strongly considering them. I have tried anti depressants years ago for stress and really they kind of made me zone out a bit. They didnt really work. I am scared of benzo drugs because they can be so damaging and addictive. I think. I haven't ever tried them.
Have any of you all found something that keeps that tight, overwhelmed feeling from happening? I so do not want to be a mean, fun crushing, mom and wife. That is not who i really am but it is who i have become somehow. And my family does not deserve it.