my list could go on and on but day by day i am feeling worse and worse as a parent. i have 3 boys (8 1/2, 4, & 10months) i am a SAHM since feb. days are pretty routing with getting both older kids to 2 different schools but i get up and im on constant worry mode: getting the house clean, mopping, organizing,doing laundry, breakfast, lunch, pick up drop off, money, bills, husband, everything i want to tackle & feel aweful at the end of the day if i dont get it done. my 4year old is in his terrible 2's late i think, i spend most of my time yelling & getting him to listen is impossible. sometimes the kids wake up & ask me "mom are you a good parent or a bad parent?" i hate yelling & feeling like im the only parent who's kids act up & act out. its embarrassing someitmes if not most of the time. i feel like im not good enough for them and they deserve so much more than im giving them and that they would be better off with outme. (NO im not wanting to harm myself) just if my husband had them and not me. people look at me disgusted sometimes when my kids aren't listening to me like why can't i get a handle on my kids. i love my kids with everything i have i just think they'd be better off. someone can do so much better than i can at raising them. ive tried not yelling, behavior charts, sticker charts, reward systems & nothing works. for me i have tried walks by myself to destress but its not helping. i have depression which doesnt help & im battling weight loss but i just want to see my kids happy or happy to be around me and listen.