Normally, people ask me what it is I want my SO or kids to get for Christmas. Last year there was just one thing I wanted and I knew could never get. Last year I wanted nothing more than my mom to feel the presence of my father with her. He will be gone eight years this spring and I know the holidays are hard for her. My kids had the things they wanted and asked for and the only thing I could think of wanting was for her.
This year, however, I can't think of one thing that I would want for myself or for someone else. I can't decide if this is a good thing or not. Mama has been dealing with the holidays much better this year and my kids are well taken care of this year. So there isn't anything I can think of that I would ask Santa for. I would love world peace, end hunger, and things such as this, but that's the same thing most if not every one wants. But an actual, personal thing? Yup, coming up blank.
I do hope that this means that all is well with myself, my children, and my loved ones and that's why I can't come up with something. I hope this doesn't mean that I have become bitter or selfish over the hardships myself and my family has had to endure this past year. And I truly hope that this is also a sign that 2014 is going to be a much better, less stressful, wonderful year. We have faced a good deal of loss and sorrow in 2013 and we could all use a break. Is this peace I feel a sign of a better future to come? I sure hope so!
May you all enjoy your holiday season, may Santa be good to all of you, and may your new year be prosperous!