Yes i am 40 yrs old and lost. I am a stay at home mom of a 5 yr little boy. I have been home with him since he's born. I use to be a medical assistant. I enjoyed and appreciate the time i have had with my son. He is going to school in September. My husband and i want another baby but i am conflicted. Do i want to stay home with another baby for another 5 yrs or get a career. I didn't go to college but would love to go back to school. I am so torn between school, a career and having another child. To be quite honest i feel like i am the best mom but in the same regard a loser because i have no degree or career. I feel useless. I am interested in the medical field. I want to be a nutritionist but i know its a big commitment to go back to school. I am at a huge crossroads in my life. I feel like 40 yrs old is old and i missed the boat. I am so confused. I had a horrendous miscarriage this past January. In the ER I happend to see the baby flow out of me during my miscarriage. I picked it up in shock screaming " my baby". Another patient in the room ran out screaming. The nurse ran in and took it out of my hands and dumped it head first in a jar. I haven't been the same since then. I am scared to try again but want another baby so bad. I also want a career. Can i have both or do i have to choose one. Am i stupid to feel like a loser because i dont have a degree that says I'm somebody? I would love some feedback.