I'm sooo tired!!
I'm 6 (almost 7mo) pregnant. I'm home alone all day, almost every day, with 3 kiddos (6, 4 and 2) Dh is working 12 hr days 4 days a week. Plus average of 10hr a week at EMT school. Sat he works 4-5 hrs at our church landscapping, and sundays we're at church 8-1. We have 1 vehichle. So i can't go anywhere. When he gets home from work he does no school work, has a few beers and watches tv. Leaving all his school work for his days off, which means no family time.
On his days off he spends almost the entire time studying and taking his online quizes and tests. And he's barely passing (like literally his average is only 1-2 points over the cut off) Because he is barely passing he's stressed and irritable so the little time we do see him he is usually just grouchy. And then once the kids go to bed he wants to have sex and i'm just so irritated at him and tired from being up all day and stuck in an apartment.
We're on the third floor, so after 20minutes of getting ready to go outside (bathroom, getting bottles of water, outside toys together etc) and getting outside. Within 30minutes someone has to go to the bathroom (often the 2yo) so all of us have to go back upstairs for another round of bathroom breaks. Or they run out of water or something! It's more work then its worth imo! To go on a walk i've got to bring the stroller down the stairs while leaving the kids upstairs or them down first then come back up for a stroller. The whole task is daunting and i just don't have the energy to even start all that!
It's definetly making me feel more depressed. (something i already struggled with prior to pregnancy) I don't have the energy to get up early to do yoga, and i have no time during the day to do it.
I've given up talking to dh about it. He just asks me "well, do you really think you're cut out to be a stay at home mom" "well i don't want my kids to be jipped educationally" Oh thanks for the support of offering to better schedule your time so you can actually be slightly helpful with the emotion, physical and educational well being of your wife and children!
I just feel like all this stress and gas is being wasted beause it's not likely he will pass the course. I don't want to sound unsupportive but i'm sooo over all this!
And he's only making $10hr! For a family of soon to be 5 that just doesn't cut it! He could make $15/hr if he just went back to CNA but he doesn't like it so he won't do it.