So Tuesday I got woken by a phone call from my mom to tell me my grandma had passed away earlier that morning. My response was are you kidding me right? I didnt mean to say it but I knew that in just a few hours my DH and I were about to enter in to the toughest battle yet for SS. I cried for just a few seconds then I had to choke it down and turn off my emotions for court. Since then I still havent had time to deal with it because of all the other stuff on my plate.My plate is so full I cant findf the time to grieve for my Grandma. We were very close we went to bingo every Thursday and I took care of her for the entire year my DH was deployed so its not like she is one of those grandparents you only see on holidays. Im sitting here at her houe surronded by my family and they are all torn up and I jsut keep thinking she is going to wake uo from her nap anytime now. I want to grieve fro her but for some reason I cant. This is the 5th person I have lost in 3 years. I feel bad for not grieveing. I have had to push my feeling aside to stay strong for my family for so long Im not sure I cant turn them back on. I just am at a loss..