Hey There Mommas,
I am feeling very blue these past couple of days, wondering and fixating on what I consider happiness. It seems like I can come up with a decent list of things in my life that are positive and meaningful, but yet at the end of the day I still stress, mope, and cry myself to sleep sometimes. I guess I just need some words of motivation and inspiration. I love my Husband and my baby so very much, they are my world, they don't deserve to have me walking around on the verge of tears all day. I don't know if it is possibly post-partum depression or guilt or disatisfaction or just plain selfishness. I just need to get out of this slump and see the beauty in each and every day....Any suggestions or words of encouragement?
I went through that until my lo was about 5 weeks old. I think it was the baby blues b/c I never wanted to hurt my baby, but sometimes just wanted to give her to dad and take a break or nap. I think it was hormones, a lack of intamacy with hubby and going on very little sleep. How old is your lo, is it your first one? It could be ppd, maybe talk to your ob. I now take a walk outside everyday with the stroller to get out of the house. Tell hubby about it, he can help. Mine brought me flowers and reminded me that I was doing a wonderful job and how much he loved me. Hope this helps, we all go through a funk period... But it gets better!
I've been going through the exact same thing. Finally yesterday my husband said I should go see my doctor and get help for this. I just wasn't enjoying my daughter and this whole experience because of the depression and anxiety. My doctor was super helpful and understanding, and gave me some options for medication. I ended up choosing to start with Atavan (anti-anxiety med) because it's a "use as needed" thing and not a pill I need to take every day or stay on for 6 months. After one pill I was feeling worlds better. I took it twice yesterday and even though it was my baby's worst day yet - she screamed for four hours in the afternoon and at least an hour in the middle of the night, and didn't sleep for almost 12 hours straight - I was able to stay calm and be with her all night so she could finally get some sleep and so could my husband.
I just want you to know that there is absolutely no shame in getting some help, or even just talking it out here or among friends or local support groups. I've never been an emotional person, so this has been crazy and weird for me, and I didn't want to admit I needed help. But as soon as I did, I could see that light at the end of the tunnel. Today I've been able to enjoy my daughter and be truly happy to be with her and honored to be her mommy.
Things will get better. Take it one day at a time, get help when you need it, and don't feel that you're alone. This happens to lots and lots of moms, and it doesn't mean you're not a great parent. It just means you need a little "alignment" to get yourself happy so you can enjoy your little angel. Make sure to take care of yourself - drink lots of water, have snacks with protein. These things can help a lot. Sleeplessness can have a huge effect on anyone, and when you combine that with the hormone parade you have going on in your body, it's no wonder you're having a tough time right now. Just remember that you will get through this and be able to enjoy these moments with your baby. :)
some new pics of my baby boy~piog~
- MyLittleMan2010
on Jun. 28, 2010 at 11:36 PM