I hope you've earned your wings, I miss you so much. These past 16 years without you have been hard considering the fact that I never had the chance to say good bye the right way. You've missed out on so much I was hoping we could share, my first boyfriend, my first real love(i'm still not over him), my pregnancy and the birth of my first child a baby girl I named braelyn.
I know your there along with grandma and grandad raising my second child for me please tell my child iam very sorry and I love him/her(the kids dad believes we had our boy) also please let the child know if I could have kept him/her I would have.
Tell the baby I really wanted it and cried when I came to the decision it's grandma came up with.....but after talking it over with her I felt it was the best option.
I hope my son/daughter can forgive mommy for keeping their sister and not them.
I wish everyone could've been here you grandma and grandad but I know your job is in heaven looking after us.
One day I know i'll see you again at the gates I just wish you could be here with me.
I often wonder what you'd say about braelyn and me being a mommy I day dream about it alot.
We're ok at least I have my own apartment now slowly getting by.
I love you