Ok it's only 10pm and Ty's surgery is at 11am. I'm having nightmares already! I'm scared! I am worried we're making the wrong decision. I am scared he will hate us. I'm altering his body! He's getting close to school age and I'm worried this is opening him up to bullying. We have no idea how long he'll have this. I'm scared of it. I'm really scared he's going to hate us, hate me. I feel like I've failed him. The surgeon today said the hardest part is the decision to do this. But I sat there thinking "actually, deciding to do this was easy for us" but now I'm realizing it isn't. But we're past the part of deciding and already doing it!
Sorry, I know many others have this and it's no bog deal. I guess we just figured by this age (nearly 4), we were home free for ever needing a feeding tube and that we would never have this issue. I don't know where things went wrong =/
on May. 1, 2012 at 1:15 AM