I complain a lot about the challenges I face everyday with my disabled child. I'm not sure why, I don't want sympathy, people have it much worse. I think I just want to vent. But my child has the best smile in the world and melts my heart. I just don't understand why this happened and how I am supposed to feel about it. My feelings are all over the place. He is 14 and so I have had a long time to get used to it, but I am still not used to it. I guess I keep waiting for the ah ha moment. This is why we are going through this! It won't happen. I love him with all of my heart, and it is hard caring for a 14 yr old baby. I guess that is the point I am trying to convey when I complain. I didn't want him to turn out like this and my biggest prayer is that he IS as happy as he seems and NOT a "normal" 14 year old stuck in a body that won't cooperate.
I don't need any responses unless they are understanding. I AGAIN am just venting out into the void. :-)