Hi everyone, it's me again. I'm the one who posted about Spina Bifida awhile a couple months ago. For those who haven't read it or forgot here's the link to refresh your memory so you all fully understand.
Anyways, I'm nearing the end of my pregnancy now. I'm currently 32 weeks. I'm so overwhelmed with so many emotions. I'm happy to finally get to hold my baby girl, and not have to be so paranoid everytime my stomach or something hurts thinking something is wrong. But at the same time, I'm really nervous and even a little scared.
I have to get a c-section done. I never had any type of major surgery, so it's pretty scary thinking about. I have no idea what to expect. I keep having dreams of it happening, and the doctors taking my baby away as soon as they get her out, and not letting me hold her for a couple days until after she has her surgery. I'm not sure if that's exactly how it's going to work, but if it is then I'm going to be heartbroken. The last thing I want is to not get to hold her before they transfer her to Phoenix Children's Hospital and not be able to see her for a little while.
I've fully accepted the fact that she has spina bifida now. The doctor visits are getting easier to go to without balling my eyes out. And even though they told me that she's most likely going to need aid with walking like needing leg braces, I'm completely okay with that. In fact, it doesn't even bother me. I accept her flaws, and love her dearly already. Whether she can walk or not, I won't love her any less.
I'm just wondering if there's any moms out there who already went through what I'm about to go through. Who can give me advice on what to expect getting a c-section, and having my child go through surgery as soon as she's born? It'd be even better if there are moms out there with children who have spina bifida as well that can maybe help give me some hope or brighten up my night. My daughter is a L5, what can I expect?