I am jelous of the moms that can surprise their kids with trips, that dont have to prepare their kids so they dont have "melt downs"
I am jelous of the moms that can hug their kids, or have their hugs have them
I am jelous of parents that dont have to deal with melt downs because something didnt go as planned.
I am jelous of the moms that hear "mom I love you"
I know I have it easy compared to some, my child is verbal.
I know he isnt 100% dependant on me for everything, even if he is just 9
I am just so tired, I cant even do respite (as in he goes to my moms) because he just cant handle that change. Plus my mother doesnt understand his needs just claims its my fault for lack of dicipline
I just feel defeated...in a week the new school year starts (I am homeschooling him) I want to get help but I don't want him judged I cant go to my friends because I have already lost so many because I dont go out, its just too stressfull.
I also have social aniexty so that doesnt help.
He is a good kid, I know he is,
Okay I really dont know where I am going with this...I am bawling as I write this, just needed to get it off my chest I guess.