Well, I do initiate sometimes. But my turn on is when he is being forceful, even a little bit. Him wanting me is what gets me hot. So when he doesn't make any moves, I will go weeks without sex. I know he'd also like me to initiate, but it honestly feels like he's just lazy.
So I'm at a catch 22- either I don't initiate and I don't have sex, or I do, and it's just okay. The last time we had sex, he seriously acted like he was over it in the middle of all of it. Like, we were going at it for 20 minutes or so, and then I hopped back on, and he's like "again?" in a very irritating tone. It was such a turn off. But I wanted to finish, so I kept going. But it wasn't good at all. It was very blah. And I'd rather just get off myself when he's gone than have blah sex. It really sucks. I have dreams about good sex. lol