Sexually frustrated - can anyone help or offer suggestions?
I am 48, soon to be 49, have 4 children and 3 grandkids. I was married for 25 years, was a fun-loving, "free-agent" for about 3 years, then met my SO, and we've been together for 5 years. I have always been an extremely sexual person, not afraid to try anything at least once, and just love to be with men (although, I will say that I enjoy looking at, and fantasising about women). You could say that since I had sex the 1st time, I could never get enough since; but I have always had a hard time with having an "O" without having my clit rubbed while he's inside me. My SO and I have always had a great relationship, in and out of the bedroom, but I lost my job in May, and the financial burden on him has been really hard, and I struggle with paying my own bills on unemployment, so I haven't been able to help him much at all. And, even though we had a great sex life, I have had an ongoing affair with my old boss for the last 2 years, since 2 months after we met! Sounds shitty of me, I know, but we're talking about a totally hot, Puerto Rican!! I have suffered with, dealt with, and taken medication for depression for as long as I can remember, but until the last 4 to 6 months, it has never affected my sex life, or my desire for sex. Now, I think about it all the time, but my body is just non-responsive. I have very little feeling in my clit, have a hard time staying wet, rarely have an "O", and in general "not in the mood". My head says yes, but my body says no. My doctor has changed my prescription, and added cialis to help, but nothing seems to be working. I want to go back to being my same old, insatiable, sexual self!! Any suggestions or advice?