I am afraid that I'm not good enough sometimes for my df. His wife in my eyes was perfect. She was beautiful, creative, kind, and everyone loved her. It has been 8 years since she passed away and I can tell it still really hurts him when the anniversary of her death comes around each year. I think I am just feeling insecure because well I gained 40lbs with our dd and I still have not lost it and it has been a year and a half already. Also I know why they got married so fast but it still bothers me because we are not getting married until 4 years of being together. Just somethings bother me and I know its an insecurity of mine but it just hard to well not let it get to me.
Sorry I just had to get that out.