my so pushes me to the point of wanting to be done, but after we hash it out he always goes right back to acting normal.... I always make myself relax and ignore the shit because as bad as I think I want to leave him or take a break I'm scared to actually do it. I'm scared if I say I want a break he won't care and will just go.... And I don't want that. I want to leave him, I feel that multiple times a week, but im scared to the point of years of life without him. Im so lost.