I have been wanting to get this out for years and now that I can make this post anonymously I'm ready to reveal all! Please no bashing I have already had enough from close friends n family.
When my DH and I seperated 3 yrs ago I was alone with my 2 kids(living with my mom), I felt depressed, alone, not loved. So I'd go out every wednesday, friday-sunday. I'd get so drunk, hook up and act like I had no children and wasn't married. Well one night I wanted to go out and didn't have a sitter.......so I assumed the kids were sleep and I was a few doors down I'd leave them at home. That backfired...my mom came home before me, I was drunk got into a arguement with her took my kids and moved in with my best friend. A month later we moved back to my moms house.
Now I have 3 children. When DH and I got back together I needed a job and started dancing(not proud of) but once again I got caught up in the partying scene again. I just recently moved back with my mom(the kids too) but there are days where I'm haunted by my past and it tears me apart that I could do such a thing. I'm a mother and I acted like I was 18yrs old! Since then I'm ALWAYS home if I go out its just for the night....I think I go out once or twice a month. I just got a job(Yes a real job) LOL.
How do I move on from my past....to forget about it?