A little back story, I have 3 boys and am in school rather than working. I gave up on dead end jobs and decided I needed to go back to school to increase my chances at a decent job. I also left their father back in January, but we are trying to work things out.
Now, their dad is really pushing for having a girl, and he wants to start trying next month. We have a 4 year old, a 3 year old, and an 18month old. We do not currently live together, although that is in the works. I am on PA as well as housing assistance. He has a job, but he does not make a decent enough income, based on where we live. (I know some areas on the US, his wages would be more than enough, but not here) I can't move to a cheaper (and safer) area until next year.
However, my family doesn't want me to have more, EVER. They want me to get my tubes tied and call it done. They figure I have enough on my plate, and I should be done having kids. I still have a small "pouch" from having 3 kids back to back, and everytime I see extended family it's the same thing "Are you pregnant?" "No." "You sure?" "Yes" "Good. No more kids. You have enough."
So, now the big question, what do I want? I want 2 more, and then to be done. I hope they would be girls. Until I get to a point where I would be happy with 2 more boys, I do not want to start trying. I have tossed around adoption, but SO has said he wants a biological daughter. Honestly, I kinda do too. Although, I know adoption would be fine too, if it means I am guranteed a girl.
Just needed to get this out there. Sorry.