is hard. especially when you do it alone. i dont ever say i wish i wouldnt have had sex and gotten pregnant because i love my little boy so much, but i wish i would have waited until after college. im trying to do the right things with my life for my son, but it didnt get hard until recently. the first year was fine, easy whatever. i knew what i was getting myself into. now that he is one, he is taking up all of my energy, and im tired all of the time. i find myself yelling a lot and crying. im always worried about money. i am currently getting my GED, working on it at least. I dont have a job, because my mom wants me to get my GED before i start working a real job. I am 17 right now and although I love my life, I wish it was different. I make my money by babysitting a bunch of kids, I pay for diapers, but I get WIC. My mom pretty much takes care of us(which i am ashamed of) I want to get out on my own as soon as I turn 18 in august but It might take a while. I have a wonderful boyfriend, who isnt my sons biological father but who has been in his life since I got pregnant. He will be moving in with me after he graduates in june. I have it pretty good and I thank my mom everyday for taking care of me and loving me. I got lucky with a mom who embraced me and didnt kick me out.
my confession is just that i wish that i would have waited to have my beautiful son<3